hee hee!

Yeah so

I haven't really be blogging much! I've been bad. Or something.

Anyway, I got crap for christmas which has been keeping me occupied such as Guitar Hero, Shadow of the Colossus, Rubik's Cube, Viewtiful Joe 1 and 2, Metroid Prime 2: Echoes, and probably more. My sister got Pikmin and Wario World, and my dad got a Mega Man Aniversary Collection thingar, with Mega Man 1-8. I also read Michael Crichton's State of Fear, and am reading the Harry Potter series (on 1 now), cause I never got around to it.

All the while, I'm still looking for a job. DRAT!

YEAH, SO THAT'S WHY I HAVEN'T BEEN BLOGGING.

HAPPY

NEW YEAR

suckers

YAH

It came to my attention that I had mentioned that I was going to blog more, but I kinda slowed back down. I don't want to stop, but I just forget to sometimes :P Anyway...

Dragon Quest VIII is entertaining me a good deal, I put it on hold for a couple days while playing Metroid Prime, but now I'm back in action. I've logged about 30 hours on it so far, and I'm riding around on a majestic Sabrecat, which is basically a sabre toothed tiger with a pink mohawk-mane. It's badass because it lets you travel around about twice as fast as normal, maybe quicker.

Went to see Just Friends tonight with Tristan, and it was pretty damn good. Van Wilder in a fat suit and hot girls. What more can you ask for?

I get to wake up at 8am tomorrow / today... which is in 5 1/2 hours, to take a friend to the doctor. Lucky me! I also hope I hear back from friggin boxlight tomorrow about that job.

ALSO: Wikipedia wins my best site of the second award, and most of my links will be to there now.

Dragon Quest VIII

Decided in a very brief moment to run out and pick up the new Dragon Quest game tonight, and so far it's pretty slick. Old school RPG style with new graphics and a lot more polished than the first Dragon Warrior, FUH SHIZZLE.

While I was at Game Crazy, I also picked up a used copy of Burnout 3 for about $15. I remembered the Penny Arcade guys enjoying it, so I figured it'd be worth that small sum. Haven't tried it yet though.

DQ8 did come with a playable Final Fantasy XII Demo, which like they related on PA, feels like they are trying to take FF XI offline, and it totally ruins the FF experience. The character designs and whatnot definately have strong influences from previous games, but the combat system just breaks the game. The sad thing is, I know I'll have to buy and play the whole damn thing, since the stories are always so good.

I've been attempting to deal with this bout of feeling insignificant in the vast scope of things, and I'm doing better by keeping myself busy, but it seems to linger at the back of my mind constantly, nagging me... I really wish I could just feel ignorant and blissful. I've looked into things such as The Distinctiveness of Being Human, A Course in Miracles, and How Big the Universe Is, asking the tough questions I never really bothered to ponder very long, probably out of fear... I probably should have stayed that way :P

I'm trying to think of what sparked this internal debate, and I really can't put my finger on it. It might be all the anime I've been watching lately, it might be just be sitting on my ass all day, or it could have just been mostly random... either way, I started wondering what happens after life, what it would be like to experience my conciousness being extinguished... that kind of thing. It went downhill from there I guess :P

I wonder if my declining focus on the subject is an unconcious self defense mechanism to keep from going crazy.

Regardless, I'm glad I started blogging again, to get thoughts down linearly instead of just going insane.

Cheers!
P.S. Nick sucks at being drunk.

TEH POTTAR

Went to Olive Garden with my family today, had their FANTASTICO Tour of Italy, with Zuppa Toscana. Excellent. I just finished off my leftovers.

Went to Nick's afterwards, we hadn't hung out in a while, so that was cool. We jammed out a little bit, which we were both seriously lacking, talked a little about what's been on my mind lately, then we went to see the new Harry Potter.

When I checked the times earlier, it was only showing on three screens at midnight, but when I went to see if there were any tickets available on Fandango at about 11, I noticed that there was a fourth screen! I'm thinking they decided to show on the fourth one after the fact, cause that one was only like half full.

The movie was good, there was just one scene that was kind of confusing with this guy on the ground, but yeah. Good times.

And to think, I was going to take my sister to see it tomorrow. TOO BAD SHE HAS TO GO SWIMMING. SUCKER.

Jamiroquai - Feels So Good

Jamiroquai always puts me in a better mood. I really didn't want to leave that depressing post as my last post for a while and have people be concerned, so I guess I need to post again.

I did have quite the bout of uncertainty and searching for answers tonight, but I kinda feel better after looking through a photo album my grandmother put together for me for my 16th birthday. It is a photo documentation of nearly every one of my birthdays up until 16, it was neat to see myself back then, with my friends and family, being happy. Looking at my early birthdays and seeing how happy everyone was.

This is kind of hard to write, as it makes me also remember the effect of time, which does apparantly have quite the effect on my emotions. It helps to have seen it though, and it always helps to write it down and put some substance to my thoughts.

I'm finding my identity again, and it is nice.